Only seeing what we want to see in Luka
Luka is larger than life. The image he has cultivated for himself is one of a handsome, carefree, jet-setting model. But we all know this was just an image. In reality he was his biggest fan, or maybe even only fan. Many of his photos were photo-shopped to make him seem like he’d been more places and done better things than he really had. This shows a lot of dishonesty on his part. This is not a good trait! Yet it’s somehow easily overlooked by his supporters, because of the damaged little boy inside. In addition to all the image of beauty of Luka cultivated online, he also spend a lot of time pouring his heart out about all the bad things that have happened in his life from childhood to failed relationships. This is the part that makes him real.
I’ve come to realize that I tend to overlook any unattractive qualities Luka possesses and focus only on the good, or on the person inside who just needs help. I am somehow able to discard thoughts of all the things that don’t fit in with the perfect image of Luka that I have in my head, the fantasy man I obsess over. I haven’t yet figured out why I’m able to do this when there is such a vast amount of information about Luka that ranges from unattractive to downright despicable, but I have created a list of some of the things that I tend to ignore when I think about Luka:
- Alleged criminal behaviour – murder, cannibalism, necrophilia, animal torture
- Sexual deviance – pornographic actor, escort business, stripper
- Dishonesty – pathological lying, fraud and plagiarism
- Narcissist and possible psychopath
- He’s probably gay and not into women at all
- He smokes
I tend not to fit any of the above into the (false) image of Luka I am attracted to. None of the above are good traits! These are not things I desire in people in my life. If only these things were enough to dissuade me from this obsession. But all the negative traits in the world seem to be overshadowed in Luka by the beautiful image of the jet-setting superstar, and the damaged little boy who just needs love and attention. In the fantasy that is Luka, we only see what we want to see.