The duality of Luka
The following is the point I’ve been trying to get across to reporters who ask about my “school girl crush” on Luka. It’s hard when all they want to ask is: “But you know this guy cut someone up, and now you’re giving him exactly what he wants?”…That question misses the point, and here’s why:
The “school girl crush” is only one side of this! There’s a strange duality to Luka. On the one hand, we have the image he created for himself of the confident, successful, jet-setting model. This is the person he projects in his photos. Something about Luka’s face makes me warm and fuzzy, I don’t deny that, but there’s so much more it! It’s actually pretty strange for me to feel this way; I can’t remember one other time I’ve become infatuated with someone’s appearance.
But then there’s the darker, more complex side of Luka. I’m not just talking about the actual crime he allegedly committed, because that’s just the culmination of everything. I’m talking about his life and who he is inside. He is tremendously fascinating! This is the part that keeps me interested. If it was just about a pretty face, I would have been over him in an hour I’m sure!
There’s so much information about him that he put out there himself. It is interesting to try to put the pieces together, to figure out what could’ve potentially made him snap the way he allegedly did. The more I read, the more I feel empathy for this lost little boy! That’s how I see him. It makes me terribly sad to think that no one was there for him apparently.
I’m aware that there is some cognitive dissonance involved in supporting Luka the way I do. It’s just impossible to reconcile the beauty and the beast within him. On the one hand, I adore this image he has created for himself, even though I’m fully aware it’s not real. As has been pointed out, his surgically altered face is not even real, but this just doesn’t make him any less attractive.
On the other hand is a lost boy who allegedly committed a heinous crime and it appears that the reason for such may not have been some psychopathic urge, but rather and even more so a slap in the face to society! I don’t believe he enjoyed the things he allegedly did in that video. To me it seems like he may just have been going through the motions for shock value. There’s a recording of Luka’s voice where he is getting upset about a family guy episode. He discusses how sick and twisted necrophilia is. I honestly believe that is how he truly feels, like 99.9% of the rest of us. If he is guilty, I can only imagine that he was rebelling back against a society that was so cruel to him and ignored his cries for help for so long! He is just extremely confused and had too many wrongs committed against him.
People forget that Luka is a victim too! A victim of society and of a poor upbringing that likely left him with many disorders! This is why I (and many others I know of) have such strong empathy for Luka. It’s makes me sad for him and sad for society. I like to balance out this sadness with a little Luka fantasy “crush” (no harm in that), but in all honesty it’s the person inside him that absolutely fascinates me. I feel a strong need to know him, to be his friend, to provide some comfort that he never had.
Although I wouldn’t be surprised if he hated me. I’m not simply fawning over him; I’m trying to see the whole picture. And as much as he seems to have cried out for help with all his years and years of postings, I’m not sure he wants to be so exposed, for us to see the different sides as all belonging to him. He worked so hard on his image and that is no doubt what he wants people to see, what he wants people to love him for. I wonder if he would be embarrassed that so many of his sock-puppet accounts have been revealed, that everyone now knows that he was his own biggest fan. Or is it enough for him to know that he actually has real fans and supporters now, by the hundreds? I wonder if we’ll ever know.
It is one of the few times that I agree with one of the many writings that have made Magnotta. I also think that the true culprit is society in general.
I think that your article is true. I am a huge fan and I also think that Luka is extremely attractive but is always unhappy. Everything he has ever said has always been a lie, what he says about himself, what he posts, just everything. He is a sad, sad person who took his frustrations out on the world. I kept every article that was printed about Luka until he was caught, reading about himself in Germany. I will still follow him as he totally fascinates me, and I still haven’t figured out exactly what it is about Luka Magnotta that I can’t get enough of. I can’t wait till he goes to court so I can continue to follow him and this whole deal.
Newflash: Lots of people in the world are sad and have frustrations in the world. Lots of people have horrible childhoods — much worse than his. Some have no parents whatsoever. But that doesn’t mean they go killing innocent people, eating them, killing innocent animals and posting videos of these horrific crimes for all the world to see. You need to get help because you’re just as vile and evil as Luka is for supporting him.
You people sound so completely fucking stupid I can barely believe this is real. Reading this actually makes me worried about the future of the human race, when people like you can openly acknowledge how brainlessly shallow you are and yet still continue to “support” – what the fuck does that even mean! – this idiot like brainwashed sycophantic slaves. This stupid little piece of shit killed animals and then that guy – and maybe even more people, we don’t know yet – EXACTLY because he knew he could count on total morons such as yourselves to become his “fans” – !!! – and live out some kind of narcissistic, solipsistic fantasy while he crumbles into dust in a jail cell.
Btw, GREAT JOB LUKA! MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!
Seriously you idiots, get over yourselves. Someone DIED! This isn’t a fuckin game.
real talk bro
“If he is guilty, I can only imagine that he was rebelling back against a society that was so cruel to him and ignored his cries for help for so long! He is just extremely confused and had too many wrongs committed against him.”
How the hell did society have anything to do with this guy killing that dude??! Are you twelve, eleven-an-a-half?? Have you seen ANY of the news reports about this guy? Or interviews of people talking about this guy?? Do you realize that everyone who knew him thought he was a weird, disturbed, fame-obsessed freak-mobile?? I can’t tell how far up your ass your head is buried, but I’m guessing you can taste last nights lasagna.
You guys can relax because at the end of the day, by her own admission, the author confirms that this is just a fantasy blog. Why she chooses to betray that confirmation by putting up such posts which beg and grovel to be taken seriously is another matter. Also using words such as ” I believe”, the author makes it clear of the severe disconnect that she is experiencing, ergo, does not know how to portray herself in the light of all the attention (+ve or -ve) which this blog has gotten. Furthermore, she wants to taste this lost little boy and feel his hands all over her body. She obviously throws around some
serious jargon like cognitive dissonance and duality but its just a bid to be taken seriously, so dont worry about it. Look at the bright side, just when you think you have seen it all… boy ans have
preach brotha
What people are forgetting is that he pleaded not guilty, i really think he was framed. I beleive he is innocent.
WOW
You need help. Have u seen the video? Do u have a conscience?
Maybe we should let him out with an icepic & a map to your home? Do you have a webcam?
he could go a step further than last time, & defile you live in real time over the internet!
What do u say?
Your just as stupid as he is for thinking he will get away with this..
No, he is not innocent. He killed a man. Online.
You need help. Have u seen the video? Do u have a conscience?
Maybe we should let him out with an icepic & a map to your home? Do you have a webcam?
he could go a step further than last time, & defile you live in real time over the internet!
What do u say?
Tiny tiny souls, or penises. Or both !
The fact that you havent told your husband that your mentally SICK tells me alot, you KNOW your mind is twisted. you need help and you should see someone about this. You have a child.. what if your chils grows up being the next Magnotta or Bernardo.. Are you going to support it?
YOU and ANYONE who is “obsessed” with Magnotta are disgusting and mentally ill people!
The boy murdered a man, cold blood! VIDEO taped it, POSTED it to the net so he can selfishly be famous! If he wanted to be famous, he could have been like every other start out there and worked his ass off to make it.. he is a fake, phoney psycho path!
Girl, Split from your partner, get a shrink appointment because frankly I think you might suffer from HYBRISTOPHILIA or better yet you are probably just demented. I know, why you are doing this, you are worshipping this lunatic just because he is safe behind bars and can’t hurt you right? You represent everything that is wrong with this society and people like you should be removed from the gene pool for good. Hope you meet someone like Luka on the way home or when you have a kinky night of bondage! Actually in a perfect world I wish Luka killed you instead of Jun Lin and those poor cats. You add no good to this society. The world would certainly be a much better place without you.
People who are fans of killers like Luka, Paul Bernardo, Manson, Ted Bundy and other individuals of the like are sick in the head. There is nothing praise worthy about them. They deserve to be killed and that’s it. You should kill yourself or ask someone to kill you before it is too late and you go killing people. I don’t want even think about what you do when you are not writing your blog, you probably kills and torture animals like your idol, don’t you? One thing is to be obsessed and try to understand Luka’s mind, his contradictions, the duality, but it is something completely different the way you describe how you feel about this murderer, you say you are a fan, you have no empathy to the victim and you support Luka because he is ‘devastatingly good looking’. You get turned on about his voice and sexually aroused about his mannerisms in the videos and feel like you are in love, like a teenager, infatuated with his beauty. Get a grip! You are pathethic, the matter isn’t about the right of talking about whatever or whoever you want, your blog is disrespectful, seriously you could talk a lot about Luka without worshipping him like you do. Maybe this is why people are being rude to you, what did you expect? if you had a neutral approach, things would be different, but you can’t say you are a fan of a sicko who eat feces kills cats and humans and now you expect praise and respect from readers. You’ll get what you deserve. And you deserve all the suffering Jun Lin went through, all the bad feelings his family are dealing on daily basis, you deserve the worst in the world, just by being Luka Magnotta fan. I hope you get help before it is too late
And here you are the one who condemn those terrible acts, wishing them upon another.
Who is the true monster ?
Know that we have our own minds, free will. We do not mind being ridiculed by bigots safe behind their screens, because we are humble to none.
I hope a cat scratches your eyeballs out.
Well put Lexa!
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Reporters has the reputation of trying to rile people up for a good story. The better the story the better the reputation of the newspaper.
You are right about the part society plays. It’s a catch-22. Society is both constructive but as well self-inflictive in the sense were we try hard to build a good structure in our society but there will always be something that tries to break it apart.
Understanding that many people have different opinions, the media likes to take this to their advantage.
Way to hold your end Lexa
Lexa,
I just saw an article about your blogsite on the Huffington Post. It’s kind of exhilirating in a way lol
I’ve read it, and I agree with everything he say about “passive obsessions”. I live in a dream world, I probably wouldn’t like Magnotta in real life.
The fact that you have children and would admit to such a disturbing, ridiculous obsession is beyond me. Disgusting.
An obsession is against one’s will, we have no control over it. And I am pretty sure she is a excellent mother, but her children are not related to the topic now, are they ?
Seras Donez, her children very well could be in the topic if Magnotta or another man who is a sociopath were able to get ahold of them. Also, innocent animals… I guess you don’t like animals. Because you’re supporting and “obsessed” with someone who tortures and hurts them. I’m pretty sure any mother who is obsessed with a lunatic like Magnotta is not mentally sane. Child protective services should be called and she should have her kids taken away…as well as pets if she has any. And so should yours.
You are right I am a terrible person I should give up Titi my goldfish, I have a terrible influence on him, taunting kitten into his fish bowl to better devore them! Oh.God. What have done ?
Firstly, i don’t wish you any harm or your family. BUT to sit here and support someone who obviously has had a psychotic break from reality is repulsive. Think of your children, the moment you first held your child-NOW put yourself in Jun Lin’s mothers shoes. Her son brutally murdered and publicly humiliated online. His body that she once nurtured from a bunch of cells to a handsome, loving son ripped away from her and the rest of the family by someone who had clearly lost touch with reality. COuld you imagine never speaking to your children again? Never being able to hug your children, kiss thier forheads before bed (no matter what age they are), never being able to take a family photo bc someone has carelessly stripped you of the right to mother your son/daughter? I am only a three years older than you and i know as a mother i could never EVER support someone who has such disregard for any life let alone a human one! My hope for you is to NEVER EVER feel the pain of those parents whose Children were taken from them too soon, especially not by some psycho with no regard for life, love or FAMILY! Please look into your so called “school girl crush” and get some help. I know the theory is every girl loves a bad boy but to obsess over a psyco is delusional. In saying all this i hope Luka gets the help he needs as do you!
For now, she is enjoying – believe me I use the word “enjoying” loosely here – fantasizing and obsessing over Eric Newman. Trust me, she cant see what you wrote, why you wrote it and any shred of rationale is non – existent. An iota of effort spent to make her realize how vile and repulsive her actions are, is a waste. This blog, these words, they reek of the room where a person had died.
Sharing her impulsive thoughts have started flowing onto social media platforms as if the floodgates have opened up. Its just a matter of time before she realizes the predicament she has unknowingly (or for the same intentions as Eric) put her self in. Your message will unfortunately go unheeded, even though it depicts the reality in a very humble way.We cant help her now. She is way too far gone.
Yay !!! Now let us drink the darkness is peace !
Oh my, Lexa there is no redemption for us, we’re fucked ! Haha.
My, aren’t we kinky ?
I guess you must not like animals very much.. because this thing you’re so in love with tortured and killed one of the most innocent creatures on earth — tiny, sweet, adorable kittens. You need serious psychiatric help. And you’re married with 2 kids. I hope your husband finds out, takes the kids and runs away from you. You and all of these other self-proclaimed “fans” are sick. And by the way, the THING known as Luka wouldn’t be interested in any of you because you have a vagina and not a dick!
For the record, magnotta has pleaded not guilty and maybe he is innocent. But Lexa has admitted that she thinks he did it and she is still pursuing this blog. That should be noted by anyone who supports this woman. She even knows this is not the correct course she should take, having a child and also not telling her husband. It would take a professional to address all of the mental problems that this woman has. I think a strong motivator is the need for attention. Better to get attention from something negative than to not get any attention at all.
Have read the other comments and i too am worried about the human race. This man has been accused of animal torture, murder, cannibalism, mailing body parts, etc…Is there any act that would be too much for these people.
Here is some advice. Whenever you look at magnotta photo once, look at a photo of Jun Lin twice, and realize what this man went through. Look at any photos of his family. See if there is any way to talk to his family and understand what they are going through. Maybe start a blog about Jun Lin.
Lexa, i do not wish anything bad to happen to you, but imagine how you would feel if someone did a similar act of violence to your child or husband, or even you. How would you feel if there were people writing blogs in praise about the killer.
I do believe in innocent until proven guilty, and i will not hold anything against him if he is found not guilty. If he is found guilty, i would hope that people like lexa gets professional help and drops this path she is on.
How can anyone even feel sorry for this sick twisted fuck…Luka Magnutbar! He had sex with the torso of his ex lover not too mention all the other sick shit he did to him..I came from a very abusive home life…very disfunctional but I made choices. I chose not to go to the dark side and do the best I could in life and I’m proud of it. Lukass is making excuses for himself. He knew what he was doing all along..Multipule personalities my ass.
Multiple
Did anyone see the ctv press conference with the Montreal Police Chief/Commander, or was it just me. I’d try youtube,or Ill get the link myself. There seems to be alot of information no one is paying attention to; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVXafa77zoc this is one of them. This is the full version, part in english part in french, this will confirm how the vic and magnotta knew each other, what parts are missing still etc, sorry about the length, its bilingual in both english and french. Watch it folks, enjoy. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gTiD5Co2CnI
I never thought this was possible, not just one person but a whole group of people that worship this freak. This faggot killed not only a PERSON, who had a family, a mother and father that loved him, but he also killed poor, innocent kittens….kittens of all things. You’re attracted to a little bitch that gets his kicks out of sucking the life out of poor, defenseless animals?? You’re all sick people..you truly deserve each other. Maybe one day, many years down the road some sick fuck will kill your child and there will be admirers of him/her.
“Although I wouldn’t be surprised if he hated me. I’m not simply fawning over him” I’m surre he is fawn of you also I’m sure he would love to have you over for dinner right next to the mashed potatoes.
oh wait i forgot he doesn’t like women he is gay…
how is the culprit society???????/ you know how many people have been abused, thrown out of their house, probably had a “worse” life than luka and theyre not psycho serial killers. u guys are seriously nuts.
What I dont understand is all the negative replies about someone being a follower, though I do understand the reasoning behind the negative “obsession/crush” replies… but if YOU werent following the case as well, how the hell did you even get to this blog in the first place?? Seems to me we have all sorts of people following. Should you really wish harm or condemn someone for voicing their opinion and trying to understand what makes this person tick? From reading this blog, it seems more like that is the issue here than anything else. Not once has she said that she agrees with things he has done, or allegedly done. Cut her some slack. Obviously there is a curiousity in us all, wondering why people do the things they do. That doesn’t mean we are going to run right out and follow in their footsteps.