“Hate the Sin, Love the Sinner” (AKA Reaction Formation)
Reaction Formation.
This is the term I’ve been searching all along and I finally found it. I’ve been saying right from the start that I believed that my infatuation with Luka began as a psychlogical protection mechanism of some sort. That the thought that someone like Luka could commit such a gruesome crime, and the implications that has that literally ANYONE I see anywhere could also be a killer, have caused me such anxiety that my mind subconsciously surpressed any negative emotions towards Luka by covering it up with “warm fuzzy” feelings. Like a psychological self-medication against extreme anxiety. An actual chemical reaction taking place in my brain to flood me with feel good brain chemicals.
From Wikipedia:
In psychoanalytic theory, reaction formation is a defensive process in which anxiety-producing or unacceptable emotions and impulses are mastered by exaggeration of the directly opposing tendency….The concept of reaction formation has been used to explain responses to external threats as well as internal anxieties….The mechanism of reaction formation is often characteristic of obsessional neuroses….it can lead to obsessional behavior….When an individual cannot deal with the demands of desires and reality, anxiety follows. Freud believed that anxiety is an unpleasant inner state that people seek to avoid. In an attempt to protect ourselves from this anxiety, people employ reaction formation unconsciously in their daily lives. Reaction formation involves adopting opposite feelings, impulses or behavior.
I may be highly self-aware, but that still doesn’t mean I have the ability to control my feelings and obsessive thoughts; no one does. As unaffected as I thought I was by viewing the 1 lunatic 1 ice pick video, having been desensitized by way more graphic horror movies, I’m starting to think I was subconsciously highly affected. At first I’d told myself that I absolutely did not want to watch an actual murder and dismemberment on video, but my curiosity got the best of me. It started with me just reading the Best Gore comments. Then, for the heck of it, I did a quick search and there it was, way too easy to find! If it really had been restricted to the “deep web” I never would’ve watched it. But I did.
Then I suddenly, without knowing why, felt this undeniable urge to “know” Luka. I really needed to hear his voice, and that is when I found his Plastic Makes Perfect audition tape. I was mesmerized. How could this guy have possibly committed such a vile crime?!? He seemed so sweet, if not a little dysfunctional, but who’s not?!?! And so the disconnect began. The obsession took over and my infatuation with Luka began. It became not about the case and what he’d allegedly done, but more about him as a person. And I don’t deny that at that time, when I started this blog, it was the infatuation that I was mainly consumed by. I couldn’t get enough of Luka’s photos and fantasizing about meeting him. But it has evolved since then as discussed in yesterday’s post.
In a weird way I’m thankful for this “Reaction Formation” because without it I probably would not have given enough thought to Luka and what makes him tick to have developed the feelings of empathy and support I have for him now. This psychological process allowed me to open my mind and my heart to the other victim in all of this, the one who suffered and slowly destructed while society sat by and did nothing to help him, never reaching out to show him the good of humanity. It may be hard for a lot of people to see this (or to care) because they don’t relate to Luka, and the depravity of his alleged crimes makes them feel detached from him as a fellow human being, but the fact is that he IS a human being, he’s somebody’s child, grandson, brother, uncle, and if we turn our backs to the fact that he is not an inhuman monster, but a troubled boy overlooked and damaged by society, than this world will only continue to become a scarier and more dysfunctional place.
Luka Magnotta deserves the love and support he is now getting from so many, it’s just a shame that love and support were not provided sooner in his life to have prevented the downward spiral he took. He cried out for help through the internet because he had nowhere else to turn, and because of the impersonal nature of the internet, all he ever got was ridicule because no one could understand the many layers that made him so messed up inside. We feel for you now Luka, we really do, even if it is too late.
Until such a time that Luka comes out and says he committed those crimes just for the fun of it, or because of long-held murderous urges, I will continue to support him who I see as a victim of a messed up society who was pushed psychologically beyond his limits of holding it together anymore in a world that wanted no part of him, a fellow human being wandering this planet like the rest of us, in need of love, attention and more than anything, guidance.
Thank you “Reaction Formation” for giving me the chance to see all of this!
“Hate the sin, love the sinner” ~ Gandhi
You are seriously fucked in the head. I would t be surprised if you start some kind of fucked up copycat murders in order to add some “meaning” to your pathetic Attention starved life. I hope you do end up meetin luka magnotta and that he cuts your limbs off while you’re still concious.
I’m really getting sick of this kind of vitriol! This is a place for love, not hate! If you don’t like it, don’t read it! I have no violent thoughts or tendencies…you, on the other hand, obviously do!!
We are not violent, but you on the other hand are full of hatred. It’s people like you who creat monsters like Magnotta.
No it’s scum like you that encourage people like magnotta to kill for fame. Get some counseling. Get a clue.
P.s I am getting lulzsec and anonymous to destroy your website.
Don’t force your own belief in what is “good” to others.
You’re little crusade is boring me and fail to make any difference in what I stand for.
Which is bullshit
Imnot forcing anybody to changether opinion. Trustme lulzsec is more than happy to black out your website and destroy your had drive.
Colère et intolérance sont les ennemis d’une bonne compréhension. -Ghandi
“There is more stupidity than hydrogen in the universe, and it has a longer shelf life.”
-Frank Zappa
Empty words.
Très vrai! Je suis d’accord Seras. Bonne réflexion!
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You’re damn right I hate stupid people. Get just a single one of you morons on Luka’s jury and he could easily get off cuz someone was concerned with his feelings.
Justin, begone before someone drops a house on you.
Justin, why are you so goddamn upset about what others feel? If you don’t like it baby, you don’t have to watch.
Calling the police over a blog? LOL get a fucking life.
Poor you Lexa! I totally support you!
Lexa, I like the psychoanalytic theory; It’s look like me; in the beginning, I would be like everybody; I mean, hating him by what he had done; but inside me, I felt attracts by him and I judged this feeling innaceptable; This drive which I wanted to deny or to repulse it. But now, I totally accept my real feelings toward him; I mean, that I love him; that it.
These feelings are YOURS. Never forget that. You have some responsibility for allowing them to develop. Do this individual a favour, and stop projecting them onto him. He does not care one damn about you. If you and he were to meet each other, the occasion would probably a cue for his supreme indifference. One part of your obsession about this individual that bothers me is this: what about his victim, Lin Jun? I cannot find a single reference to him in all of your mooing about Magnotta. Since you seem to be following this case so closely, why not? Killing this man seems to have gotten poor Luka in all this trouble, anyway. (Sarcasm fully intended). For the sake of God, do not allow Magnotta to do further damage to your moral compass. ‘Hate the sin, love the sinner’ indeed! He would/will be delighted at all of the damage he has done to you, and to your life.
I’m sure I’ve said it in a post, but I’ll say it again. I do feel a lot of empathy for Jun Lin and his family. It’s a terrible tragedy they have endured, but there is more than one victim in all of this and he too deserves someone to stand up for him finally. I’m wasting my breath trying to explain this to you though, I’m sure. As for having responsibility for my feelings; I accept my feelings, it’s you who has a problem with them.
Tell us one way – ONE – in which this guy was a “victim”? We’ll wait.
What about the victim? This site isn’t about Jun. You care so damn much about the victim go start your own site.
What a dumb bitch
Dumb implies lacking intelligence; I assure you I have far more wits than you’ll ever have, given your profound vocabulary.
Bitch implies spiteful and overbearing; I implore you to find an example of that in me or my writing.
The word bitch can mean many things. In this context it means you are mentally weak and stupid, and therefore contemptible and not worthy of (my) respect. So I feel about you the way I feel about Luka, who is a weak punkass little bitch who never would have attacked and tried to kill someone who wasn’t drugged up and could defend themselves. He’s a coward, a worm, and you offer your heart to him. So I can’t respect the things you say or think – which you do anonymously, since even you are not stupid enough to say them with your real name attached – in fact I denounce the things you say and think.
This ridiculous website is foolish, childish, completely out of touch with reality, extremely offensive, insulting, and of course totally disrespectful to the murdered. By being so childish, by giving up a conscious adult’s perspective on your pathetic obsession, you throw your lot in with the weak, vapid, image-worshipers in our society, except you are among the lowest of these tools since murder, dismemberment and mutilation are not enough to quench your pathetic longing for your idol.
I highly doubt you are anywhere near as intelligent as I am, you don’t sound like it. Best of luck.
rantpaws, I think, it’s not Ok to insult and say hateful comments in Lexa’s blog; if you don’t like the blog, why are you so interest to come here….hummmm…It’s call harassment; You must get out of here; fortunately, Lexa is nice person. She’s accept too much haters, I think. About me, if this blog was mine, I will drop you out of here.
let me say one more thing. I do feel bad for what he went through as a kid…I feel bad for anyone that had a crappy childhood, HOWEVER, he should have sought help as soon as he had urges to kill someone. Were lucky to have free healthcare in Canada. Also, there’s nothing u could have done to help him so dont dream about how u could have changed anything because you couldnt. he has a chemical imbalance in his brain he needs to be jailed and/ or put into an institution and given meds. end of story.
You do know our free health care does not apply to psychologists, which is what he needs, right?! You can get an appointment or two with a psychiatrist if you’re lucky, but they don’t help people through their issues! At least you see that maybe he should be put in an institution and given meds, but therapy is what he needs most and I hope he gets it!
Hey, psycho. Don’t harp about how psychologists aren’t publically covered. Psychiatrists are. And btw a psychologist who’s part of a hospital IS TOO. Dumb fuck.
You really are responsible for your feelings. This mental exercise and research of yours is just you distracting yourself from stepping up and having responsibility.
You know, when I heard about this shocking and truly wrong blog of yours, I got pissed off. How dare you moon over Luka Magnotta (a stage name), and do not even write as much about Jun Lin??? That guy’s head was found in a Montreal pond!
You never dare explore one feeling and post it profusely right here for Jun Lin? You are reprehensible. And yeah, no wonder you don’t write a stitch for Jun Lin because this creepy and truly wrong blog of yours is called “Luka Magnotta Obsession”.
And you’re a Canadian, too? I have patience for people, and manners and consideration, but your blog here for mooing over and pining for Luka Magnotta does not deserve my civility. You are a dumb fuck.
You will get divorced by your husband, and you will alienate your daughter if you don’t go to a damned GP doctor (in a walk-in clinic, if you don’t have a Family doctor) and get a referral to a group or individual therapy program headed by a psychologist or a psychiatrist. Do you need your bloody hand picked up and have yourself led to funded therapy??? You’re a grown woman and you, therefore, are responsible for your health and mental health.
This crass BS that “Oh, Canadian healthcare isn’t perfect because psychologists aren’t covered, and so on” is a refusal on your part to actually do your research not on Magnotta but on discovering that, WOW!, there are therapy programs that are funded which have a psychologist facilitating it.
I actually am curious now about your mental problem. I’m not interested in your rationale and your rebuttals that me, other people outside your minority of fangirls are the problem and are wrongly judgmental. Just drivvel that doesn’t phase me. So please do continue to write about your research about the why and how of your infatuation with Magnotta and its inner workings. You’re a case that should be profiled in a study as to why mostly women get obsessed with sociopaths, psychopaths, and celebrities. You have a history of getting obsessed with people, and Luka is your first murderer. So you might help Canadian society by getting yourself studied.
“You know, when I heard about this shocking and truly wrong blog of yours, I got pissed off.” because you lack emotional maturity and self control.
This is very harsh; however, let me provide insight. I, too, feel extreme empathy for Luka. However, the more I learn about him, and when I remind myself what he did to JL, my feelings flip and I sort of loath and hate him. If I INDULGE my fucked up feelings for Luka, I feel the way Lexi does. I can’t ignore what he did just to indulge my own delusions, so I don’t. It’s a choice. I’ve reduced it to deep interest – it was a cognitive decision.
I thought to myself, “So, what if I correspond with this person, and develop a relationship, and then he is released? ” I’d move and go straight into hiding! As much as I’d want to be close to him and care for him, or whatever, how the hell could I trust him? My survival instincts are too strong. And it’s sad, because he NEEDS someone. Not just internet fans, but someone real. I’m just not willing to be that someone (anymore).
I think if Lexi found reason to stop indulging these fantasies her feelings would change. But she won’t until she wants to. Right now this is just filling some other void in her life, and ths, too, shall pass. She may even be embarassed about it someday.
But I do hope someome is there for Luka in real life – family, friends, someone. I don’t think this site is doing Luka any good; it’s just feeding the same beast thet lead him into this muck.
Sorry I called you Lexi! I have a niece named Lexi so I think my brain defaulted!
Lexa, I assure you, in a hospital environment, both psychiatrists/psychologists are covered under the health plan. I don’t think you should give the people that are calling you names on your blog a second of your time. Continue your writing as though they don’t exist, they aren’t worth your time. Seriously, I know you are a very sensitive person, but don’t take trollish statements to heart, really, hun.
How do you know that no one in his life loved him or offered him any help? You are making a very broad assumption here. Very little is known about Luka’s personal life. We have any a few blog entries about his closeted lover and his own words on the psych forums. Indeed he may have been abused, but that certainly has not been proven. Luka lies habitually and engages in attention seeking behavior, so unfortunately, we know nothing of his background (his own “testimony” means next to nothing). Given his track record, at this point, he is not a credible witness regarding anything- even his own background.
Do you believe the emails he sent to Salta chronicling his abuse at the hands of “Manny” (hey, wasn’t that Catherine Trammel’s dead boyfriend’s name in Basic Instinct? Hmmm…..)?? Basically, Luka was saying, “yeah I killed the kittens because a big bad abuser made me.” Sounds familiar. I guess he learned a lot while studying the Karla Homolka case.
I was abused as a child. If I come over and kill your child right now (something I would NEVER do, this is not a threat, just an example) would you be able to love me and empathize with me? Or would you realize that I am an adult with FREE WILL who made my own choice to commit a murder? Or would you say, “poor Baby Maggie. Society failed her.”
By the way, Luka at some point was a psych meds, wasn’t he? How do you know that someone he loved (a family member, friend, lover) did not urge him to seek medical help? Why are assuming that no one ever cared for him?
Luka was rejected on the net because he behaved in an unpleasant and unattractive manner. He reaped what he sowed. If I start posting on the web that I am the hottest being on the planet and it’s sooooo HARD to be so beautiful, I fully expect somebody (many people, actually) to tell me to PISS OFF.
Also, just for the record…remember when Luka had the interview with the journalist to deny his relationship with Karla? That journalist expressed concern for Luka’s health and offered him assistance, asked him if he could help him. Luka said no thanks, he was under a doctor’s care. That is a matter of public record. So much for NO ONE ever caring or offering to help. We know very little about his life, but in the small slice that we have access to, I have already proven your emotional assumptions false.
And he is not a lost little boy. He is a grown man with free will. He is capable of telling right from wrong. If he isn’t, he will be deemed not criminally responsible by reasons of insanity (and I will bet my bottom dollar that that will never happen. He is disordered, but not legally insane).
It seems you are really grasping at straws to keep this blog going. The intelligent insight you had (that was mixed with your disturbing “Luka love) seems to be dissipating. Now you are thanking reaction formation for its great gift? Really? That’s pretty absurd, but I guess I need more grist for mill.
You know as much about Luka as I do, you got your info from the same sources I did, and you have no idea if any of what you are asserting is true. It’s just what you believe to be true.
And if his family abandoning him…well, that’s what you get when you claim on the web that you had an incestuous relationship with your sister and had a child by her. If you had a brother who made those claims about you publicly, would you be eager to invite him over for dinner?
He’s like a cancer, this guy. A malignancy. I support helping those with mental illness, of course, but Luka had his chance to try to be well. Shit, he could have called a hotline or gone to a hospital for treatment. Why are you so eager to absolve him? Because he’s cute?
Why is society responsible for this tragedy more than Luka himself? Luka seemed to enjoy being nuts, he fucking cultivated his crazy. He fed it, nurtured it. He had choices.
I was also abused and alienated by my peers. I have choices and I choose to not murder people and animals. It’s not that hard to abstain from murder. It’s really not.
And Lexa, are you enjoying your growing infamy? What’s it like to ride a dead man’s coattails into notoriety?
I couldn’t have said it better babymaggie666, I applaud you and hope that your posts get through to people that are obsessed with him. He doesn’t deserve the attention, this is what he wants.
Have any of his supporters actually watched the snuff video? Do they know that he started posting about it 10 days before he posted the actual video? Coming attraction postings for a snuff film?
I haven’t seen the video, I don’t need to see it. I wish all of his supporters would watch it and imagine that one of their loved ones is the victim. I did see his kitten and the snake video, well, not all of it, I had to stop it then cried for hours. This was early this year, before the murder. I was floored when I found out it was the same guy.
I was sexually abused at a young age. I was physically and emotionally abused as well. I am bipolar, I also suffer from depression and anxiety, I suffered from it for 20 years before I was diagnosed and sought help. I have other, extremely painful health issues that I have had my entire life. Life isn’t easy, it downright sucks most of the time. Never once have I thought about torturing kittens or murdering someone, not even the ones that abused me.
So please, stop making excuses for him, stop saying it is because he had a crappy life. It is insulting to those of us who have had just as hard of time and have managed to keep it together and rise above it.
By the way, please pardon my many typos. I don’t proofread this stuff.
If you have so much passion for the disenfranchised, Lexa, why don’t you use the inspiration for get from Luka to bring some good into the world? You could work a suicide prevention hotline (gay teens have a very high suicide rate), you could volunteer in a domestic abuse shelter, you could volunteer to help sex workers. In my city, I volunteered to ride in a van and hand out sandwiches, condoms and clean needles to prostitutes. You could work in an animal shelter and help abused and neglected animals. What do you think ever happened to that puppy that Luka used in his video? I guess he just vacuumed him to death, like the kittens.
Oh, but I guess the media would not really care about any of that stuff, so no interviews. Also, if you blogged about it, you wouldn’t get many hits would you?
All you talk of empathy and care rings false for me. I venture to guess that the only thing you care about is nurturing your own secret world which makes you feel important , notable, different, interesting, dangerous- and don’t forget “warm and fuzzy”. Why try to do something positive when you can feed society’s sickness and be a figurehead in an off kilter internet subculture. Hell, you could post audio recordings of your own farts at this point and some sycophant would tell you how melodic they sound.
Just read what you wrote and I applaud you.
A few observations:
I relate in my own life to the pattern of obsession/compulsion you’re facing, although I don’t share this specific one for Luka with you. I do, however, recognize the hallmarks of “the pattern.”
As you’re beginning to become aware, it has little to do with Luka himself, and mostly about yourself. While you’ve researched him as much as you possibly can, the Luka you “know” is your own creation, “existing” as you “know” him only in your mind. The “real” Luka – as much as the word “real” can be used because we humans are all always in figurative “metamorphosis” – is not the Luka you “know.” From some of your entries, that may well be something you’ve already figured out.
Drawing from my own experiences, I commend you for being open about the obsession and finding ways to get some of the “venom” (the obsession) out by giving it voice – here and initially to your family. I’m happy for you that you have a seemingly strong family support system. These kinds of things can truly become ominous within us is we make the choice to keep them inside, to hide them, to cloak them in our own shame.
But I encourage you to be cautious about another aspect of this as you move through it.
That is, at some point, the obsession will begin to fade. (And from your most recent entries, it seems to be taking baby steps towards fading.) When it does, you will likely begin to feel a sense of loss and emptiness. When coupled with the sense of “community” you’ve begun to develop with others that share this obsession, that sense of loss is magnified. It may actively become -frightening- to contemplate being “away” from the community: it may become frightening to imagine dealing with the obsession “alone” again, without that “community,” were the obsession to again (in the future) become as vivid and consuming as it was for you in the initial stages.
And, ironically, at that point the most reflexive and human reaction is to begin to actively -feed- the obsession to “keep it alive,” to sustain it, albeit usually subconsciously. Even if not for the obsession itself, but for the new-found “community” you have begun to identify with. In my experience, the point in time where we begin to consciously and knowingly “feed” the obsession is a truer danger point than the “venting” you are doing here. For your own well-being I encourage you to recognize and permit the “normal” lifespan and life cycle of this obsession within you.
One final thought:
In living with and coping with various (innocuous) obsessions in my own life, the most powerful word of advice I’ve discovered to dealing with them are these:
“What you think about expands.”
Best wishes!
I applaud your lack of bias to her. I too suffer OCD although over the years and with the help of a great Doctor, I was able to develop tactics to counter the obsessive thought pattern. People that don’t have it, are clueless as to how disturbing it can be. Thank you for your post.
I think that you have hit the nail on the head. I mean this in the sincerest of ways that you potentially have an underlying mental condition that has caused you to start having these feelings to begin with. They in all likelihood actually have nothing to do with Luka at all but possibly some other traumatic event that has occurred throughout your life. You might even have repressed those memories because they are too painful to relive and following this case may have subconsciously stirred some of these suppressed emotions. As a coping mechanism your brain tried to rationalize Luka’s actions to allow protect yourself from this long buried and unwanted pain.
I’m not sure that Reaction Formation is the proper diagnosis for you, but there is absolutely potential for this to be part of some form of defense mechanism. Again I mean this in the most sincere way possible, you should seek some professional guidance as there is a possibility of your condition progressing into something more serious or maybe even irreversible.
If you are in Ontario you can obtain free mental health services with help from the Canadian Mental Health Association at 1-866-531-2600 or here is their website:
http://www.cmha.ca
He was offered help and I’m pretty sure that he would have seen those posts urging him to come forward and receive treatment, as he watched what was being written about him online. However, it was too late by that point, it appears he had already decided what he was going to do. Unfortunately, it could not have been prevented by any of us.
“Have you thought about what a terrible emotional impact a web site like must have on Jun Lin’s family? ” I have thought about it and I don’t care. They don’t have to read it. People really need to man up. The world is not only going to show you what you want to see. The world isn’t going to coddle you or the families of victims. If stuff like this blog hurt your delicate brain, then don’t read it.
“I have thought about it and I don’t care.” Sounds like the perfect theme for the “What’s wrong with Canada” post. Eric / Luka didn’t care about others either, he only cared about his own perversions and narcissistic infamy.
I readily admit that I too am “obsessed,” in a sense, by this tragedy. But is is the tragedy I obsess over. Like I will never forget about Tim McLean, the innocent young man sleeping on a Greyhound bus on his way to a summer job, until the schizophrenic next to him murdered him. Like I will never forget about Tori Stafford, a young girl led away, raped, and brutally murdered.
You like to muse over “what must have happened” to Eric / Luka to make him this way, as if there is anyone or anything responsible other than himself. The most deplorable thing “that happened” to him was a choice of his own making — to stop caring about others, in particular the innocents who brought only light to his life. There is no excuse for that, regardless of his past.
So, you don’t care. Hope that works out for you.
oh blow it out your ditty bag.
Justin, grow up. You are weak minded. Your fear shows around the edges.
Justin, you have no need to expose this blog to the world, it has already been discussed on several radio stations and newspapers, even into the united states. So off with you, go blow your horn on the subject somewhere else. It isn’t illegal to have thoughts and put them in a public forum. Really.
Yes, because when people like things or do things YOU don’t agree with they must be “unhappy”. Know who is the unhappy one? You. You sit on blogs you don’t like and bitch. People who sit around bitching are the unhappy ones. Why don’t you worry more about your own backyard and not hers? Also practice self control instead of letting your toddler like mind type hateful things every time it decides to have a tantrum.
What is worse people who can admit they are obsessed with Luka (and other killers), or people who are obsessed but don’t want to admit it so they spend so much time attacking the more honest among us?
I dunno if the Luka haters watch pro wrestling…but they are the biggest marks of all time…
How could such a sweet person be capable of such a crime? This is why – because he isn’t “sweet”
This is what he is :-
Psychopathy (/saɪˈkɒpəθi/[1][2] from the Ancient Greek ψυχή “psyche”, -soul, mind and πάθος, “pathos” -suffering, disease, condition[3][4]) is a personality disorder that has been variously described as characterized by shallow emotions (in particular reduced fear), stress tolerance, lacking empathy, coldheartedness, lacking guilt, egocentricity, superficial charm, manipulativeness, irresponsibility, nonplanfulness, impulsivity, and antisocial behaviors such as parasitic lifestyle and criminality.
John Wayne Gacy, BTK, i could list for hours about all the people that were “nice – sweet – charming. That’s what they do. Void of any actual emotion and act in a way they think is normal to act around anybody else.
Magnotta has not even spoken to ANYONE since arrested. We know nothing about his life apart from what the press have managed to dig up, which isn’t a great deal and who knows if that is even true. He may be someone’s son, brother etc but so was the victim who was murdered for no reason. Except to fulfil magnotta’s dream of becoming famous. (that last sentence is my opinion)
It’s been interesting to read the articles on your blog because I often wonder about people like yourself who develop a strange infatuation with murders. I wonder what is missing in your life to spend so much time thinking about poor luka. I guess it fills a void – similar to people who use drugs or alcohol or people with eating disorders, that give no thought to what their actions are doing or effecting other people. All that matters is getting their fix It seems to me like you have picked blogging / thinking / fantasising about magnotta to do this.
Not that I am any shrink lol just tryng to figure out why someone would develop such an infactuation with someone they have never met – do not know and has more than likely murdered a human being. Feeling such empathy and love and attraction its not healthy or normal.
Anyway not having a go – everyone is entitled to their thoughts and opinions on everything, I am just interested and wanted to post my opinion.
You’re quite right that in a way Luka is my drug. I admit to being highly addicted to him!
I don’t care if it makes me a psycopaths as long as it is a true feeling and heart towards Luka I’m happy <3
I understand your fascination with Luka as there are a lot of things I like about what him based on all the stuff I read and seen. He’s attractive, sweet in the plastic makes perfect audition and mentions alot of things I like on his twitter and has some interesting blogs. However, having watched 1 boy 2 Kittens and 1 lunatic 1 icepick there is no excusing his crimes. The kitten video is evil as actually shows one of them die and it makes awful noises. The videos about 8 minutes long and the ‘boy’ could have stopped and not let the kittens die at any point. He has no instinct to save a life or stop sufferering, very messed up. I’ve spent hours trying to prove to myself that it is not Luka in those kitten videos but it seems that it most likely is. The icepick video is just odd, the actual murder is not on it, just a detached emotionless ‘lunatic’ abusing a corpse with the sole purpose of getting attention and making a name for himself. However bad your own life may have been it doesn’t excuse hurting and killing innocent people or animals. Luka knew there was something wrong with him as he was looking at things like borderline personality disorder and saying he was on the verge of a breakdown, why didn’t he ask for professional help? The story of Jun Lin’s life is a lot more upsetting than Luka’s. No one deserves what happened to Jun Lin, not even Luka.