Luka Magnotta Dedication
You may have noticed I recently changed the name of this blog to Luka Magnotta Dedication. This is mostly a reflection of my changing mental state regarding Luka. While this fascination with Luka may have started out as an obsession, I’ve recently come to realize it’s much more than that. At first I thought that I just needed to read all about Luka, write down some of my thoughts and feelings and the obsession would pass as most do. Then I actually started dreading the day that would happen. Now I’ve come to realize a few things that indicate to me that that just isn’t going to happen:
- Luka is so complex that it’s impossible to easily figure him out. Not to mention the fact he posted so much online. While to many Luka comes across as shallow, narcissistic and unintelligent, those who dig a little deeper see that he is much deeper, caring and intelligent than people give him credit for. Yet at the same time it’s quite clear he’s not “normal”. This drives me (and many others) to attempt to figure him out. Luka himself was always trying to figure out what was wrong him (as is evident from a number of posts he made). He has a lot of self-awareness, but his distrust of people seems to have prevented him from seeking help to the extent he needed it. I refuse to write him off as a lost cause, despite the fact he’ll likely be locked up for the rest of his life. I have hope that Luka will finally get the help he needs within the confines and regimented structure of the justice system now that he is being monitored to ensure he takes the medications he needs to remain stable and of sound mind.
- The more I learn about Luka, the more I genuinely support him and want to be his friend. Maybe Luka isn’t able to function in society, but despite that he deserves friends. I and many others I’ve spoken to wish we would’ve met Luka long ago. This is not obsession or infatuation talking. Many of us genuinely relate to things Luka has experienced in life. Many of us have difficulties connecting to people in real life, just as Luka seems to have, being a little odd and off-kilter. I’m quite certain a number of us would have connected to Luka had we met him. I’m quite certain that Luka could have had a happier life if he had made genuine connections, if not in person, at least online. He poured his heart out online, but none of us ever saw that, and the people who did could not see past the way he tried to build himself up out of insecurity.
- I’ve made great friends in the Luka community. I have never met such like-minded individuals in real life, and I’m not just talking about mutual support for Luka. I’m talking about similar thinking styles, intellect, personalities, and sense of humour. I think a lot of us find it easier to communicate online in writing than we do in person, just as Luka seems to have preferred. This allows us to discuss Luka on end with mutual understanding while feeding off each other’s thoughts and ideas.
I may not be blogging as much as I used to, but don’t expect my blogging to stop altogether anytime soon. There will always be new thoughts, new theories, and don’t forget the trial is yet to come…which will undoubtedly reveal new details.